Secret Garden

The Flame

2007-02-25T05:25:00.000-08:00

Verzonden: 11/11/2006 15:41
The Flame

Your presence filled the room
With an energy that touched my soul.
Our eyes were yet to meet
But the connection had already taken a hold.
There's an electrifying feeling
Between us words can not describe.
Time and space have no meaning
When I look into your eyes.
Instantaneous impressions that
Somehow we already knew each other.
There can be no doubt a reason
Why we've been brought together.
With pupil's enlarged and eye's bright
The flame that lay dormant is now alight.

And you will seek me and find me. When you search for me With all your heart

2007-02-24T06:48:00.000-08:00

True Friends

2007-02-24T04:44:00.000-08:00

The pain reveals

2007-02-24T04:38:00.000-08:00

I know understand!!! My whole life ...i was seeking the love of a father.
Today i can see ...there's only one ....one FATHER, always there when needed.
It was me, that locked up my heart because i was searching the wrong place !
Never was so full of motion as i am right now ...

The quote that every answers are for you to find in the heart, is here in these case really from the start...

I am
Mya

inspiratiemail

2007-02-23T05:27:00.001-08:00

You are never more substantial,
deeper yourself then when you are quiet.
Eckhart Tolle

Electrical Storm

2007-02-22T04:22:00.000-08:00

The sea, it swells like a sore head
And the night, it is aching

Two lovers lie with no sheets on their bed
And the day,it is breaking

Your on my mind all of the time

On rainy days we go swimming out
On rainy days swimming in the sound
On rainy days we go swimming out

Your on my mind all of the time

Let’s see colours that have never been seen
Let’s go places no one else has been
Cause if the sky can crack thee must be some way back

To love and only love

Your on my mind all of the time

Peter

This poem i received from Peter like many.Only this one had somehow a deeper message.It was also a part of the puzzel for me to reveal.
Because the first days after he past away,without thinking ,at this time, on the poem...
These lignes " Your in my mind all of the time,
Cause if the sky can crack thee must be some way back
To love and only LOVE" it was heared for me all the time...like an inner hearing message
THis lignes apear all the time in my head...like an innervoice whispering this words to me....

Even now, as i am sitting here writing all this;several times a hear a tick at my windows...

But now back to the poem. After a week or so...a found a cd without the box next to my computer.
It was one of Peter's favourite cd's-> (from U2) as a started to listening to the songs, it appear to me that the poem was based on this song "electrical storm"...
For me there are several messages in this song.It didn't only reveale that there is more then what we see here on earth.Peter knew this...like he new this would happen. With or without his conciousness, he left me these things that should lead me to see...See what IS
Secondly my birthday present...a silken shawl (veil), wich reminded me of the curten between heaven and earth...

You see; all of this isn't made up...it appear to me, step by step...it was like it came all of a sudden in my counsciousness...
Like i had this experience (still have such experieces but less then in beginning; or i just let it be now and therefore it may seem like its less there)with this one special star...this was also not me looking for evidence...
But it was more like the evidence came to me...It asked me to pay attention to it...
This information as well, came by inner voice,deep inner knowing or sort of telepatic communication, the feeling you experience at this moment ect...

The 3rd thing that happened,to let me see that actually Peter wasn't really dead or in other words-> There is still such thing as live after death...only we do not existe anymore in our body...
It was the thing happenend with my television. Even before i know Peter hang himself...this very unforgetable morning; my remote control wasn't working no more, the energy was out of control ...is the best way to put it.
As i putted in the power buttem of my tv..and wanted to put on a specific channel...it started to run;one number after the other, couldn't stop it...not even manuel couldn't control television channels.There was not one single channel were i could stop

As my son was at home this morning (ear-infection) i didn't had much time to pay attention to it.Just remembered that as the docter was there for my son, i asked him if he knew something about electricity.He aswered(as kind of joking) he had only the abilety to heal my son. During the day policemen came to tell me what happend.

The same evening my docter had to come again, as i was in very big shock you can imagine...
By the evening,there was nothing wrong anymore with my remote control nor my tv.
Although the days after, it dured about 14 days in total...my television became nuts...on moment it was like he was new, the second moment he started to do whatever he felt...ALso the 3 day, no matter what i did...it putted himself on channel 3, no matter on wich number i puched, it shift by itself to channel 3 ...

So this for now...this will have a follow up

Volmaakt

2007-02-22T03:49:00.000-08:00

Ik ben volmaakt zoals ik ben.
Ik ben dat altijd al geweest en zal het altijd blijven.
Er is geen bestemming waar ik heen zal moeten,
waar ik nog niet ben.
Ik hoef niets aan mijzelf te veranderen,
niets weg te drukken,
toe te voegen of weg te werken
om alle liefde van het universum waard te zijn,
dus geef ik die aan mezelf.

Als ik gevoelens van woede, gekrenktheid,
wrok of een andere vorm van weerstand tegen het leven ervaar,
hoef ik daar niet meer tegen te vechten of mezelf ervoor te bestraffen.
Ik laat het eenvoudigweg uit zichzelf oplossen
door de pure kracht van volledige acceptatie.

Nu ik mijzelf heb geaccepteerd,
voel ik de zachte, warme en liefdevolle golven
van het wonder dat leven heet door mij heen stromen,
en zo laat ik alle verschillende expressievormen ervan
binnenin mij ronddansen.
Ik bekijk ze en geniet ervan!

Omdat ik van mezelf houd en mijzelf zonder voorwaarden of oordelen accepteer,
verbreiden mijn liefde en acceptatie zich om mij heen om ons allemaal te helen.

Als ik mijzelf liefheb en accepteer, heelt de wereld!

(onbekend)gekopierd v Sandra

Alhoewel ik met het bovenstaande volledig akkoord ben, toch even vermelden dat ik nog niet zover ben :)...Vandaar dat ik het ook voor mezelf post, ter herinnering ;)

Liefde ontleed

2007-02-21T17:53:00.000-08:00

De liefde ontleed

Liefde geldt als vrij en onafhankelijk: Liefde kan niet worden gekocht, gedwongen of georganiseerd. Liefde is alleen benaderbaar in termen die tot de liefde zelf behoren,

Voor liefde hoeft nooit een verontschuldiging, een verklaring of een legitimatie te worden gegeven, Alleen betrokkenen zelf kunnen hun liefde begrijpen.

Liefde heet er om zichzelfs wille te zijn: Liefde kent geen andere motivatie dan zichzelf. Liefde is er niet om iets anders, maar alleen om zichzelf.

Liefde geldt als compromisloos: Over liefde kan niet onderhandeld worden. Liefde is er of het is er niet: liefde houdt dan ook acceptatie in van de totale persoon van de ander zoals die is.

Liefde geldt als zelfverwerkelijking: De beleving van de liefde is een ZIJNVORM van een hogere orde. Pas in de liefde komen de menselijke mogelijkheden werkelijk tot hun recht, liefde betekend ontplooiing van de eigen persoon

Inspiration mail

2007-02-21T07:14:00.000-08:00

If a question arises, then by all means, ask it.

But there is nothing sacred about asking questions.

It is when the questions cease and the mind is empty

that there is an opening for true understanding.

David Carse

2007-02-20T15:40:00.000-08:00

Seven Experiments (That could change the world )

The existence of unexplained natural phenomena has piqued human interest since the days we first grappled with fire. Mysteries such as the language used between animals or the vast potential of the human mind eternally attract our attention and elude our comprehension. Ironically, public interest in attempting to resolve these questions seems to be growing just at a time when science as an institution becomes increasingly reluctant to address these concerns. Persistent areas of paranormal intrigue that do not fit into conventional scientific models continue to remain largely unanswered.

Lay researchers and armchair scientists can now actively participate in the process of discovery with the help of Seven Experiments That Could Change the World: A Do-It-Yourself Guide to Revolutionary Science by Dr. Rupert Sheldrake. This former Research Fellow of the Royal Society at Cambridge University proposes a grassroots revolution in scientific inquiry, where amateurs everywhere can undertake for themselves the activity that is at the heart of the scientific method: the experiment.

In the spirit of Darwin, who recorded many of his observations in the simplicity of his garden and never held an institutional post, Dr. Sheldrake encourages enthusiasts of the paranormal to explore seven of the world's most enigmatic common occurrences by using simple resources of their own. The areas of study focus on phenomenon including:

1. A pet's ability to anticipate its owner's return home
2. The direction-finding instincts of homing pigeons
3. The highly organized structure of termite communities
4. Our own tendency to know when we are being stared at from behind
5. Sensations felt in phantom limbs after amputation
6. The validity of the Universal Gravitational constant as a true constant
7. The effect scientists' biases may have on experimentation

Support material, such as historical notes and anecdotal evidence, is presented in conjunction with each experiment, while tips on gathering the required materials and clear procedural directions make the research accessible to anyone. Specific data-collecting guidelines and challenging suggestions on ways to expand upon the experiments further ensure statistically valid results. Readers are encouraged by open invitation to send in the results of their work to the renowned Institute of Noetic Sciences for documentation, analysis and world-wide dissemination.

Seven Experiments That Could Change the World proposes a new relationship between professional scientists and non-scientists, the former possessing the prestige of professional credentials and the latter having the freedom to explore new areas of research. Such widespread, collective participation opens up the possibility of our being able to address these questions that still remain unanswered. It also enables us, in the process, to revolutionize our approach to the exploration of nature's unseen forces.

Bron: Rupert Sheldrake Online

Inspiration mail

2007-02-19T05:47:00.000-08:00

You think that one day you will be liberated.

One day you will be free.

Why not today?

Why not Now?

And if not Now,

When?

Jeff Foster

Acceptence

2007-02-19T02:43:00.000-08:00

Don't believe those telling you,you're different!
Don't believe those,who are telling you what you should do or who you should be!
They are only afraid of you and your light who is willing to fight...fight for what is right.
The only way right,is that of your heart ,your inner voice guiding you all the way again to the light...
Never give up believing and even there may be a moment that you will do...trust that the light is still there guiding you.
Have you effort with accepting what lies infront of you?
To accept, always proceeds that what is in you.
If you accepte yourself you'll be able to live love.
Acceptence is nor gloss over nor live it up; it is realise,looking completely honestly to yourself.
Find it difficult? Begin then with you that to proposal you recognise it where you run against. And then do it step by step..

The Sillysaurs Solutions

2007-02-18T05:31:00.000-08:00

A few weeks ago i meat this guy 'Peter Paul' more on him you can read on his website,see the link. The thing is, he had this great idea for this project, Sillysaurs Solutions and me myself i had already some sort of idea to create a house for our Children, a place were they can be and exploire in whatever they wan't you know.Grow in what there good in, in the first place it would be for children of poor family's but eventually everybody's welcome
For now i hope we can create and bring these two ideas together, the concept i personaly think is great, and if people are interested to support this, Please All Support is Welcome

For me it's with all my heart i wan't this so very much to succeed!!! Sinse i was very lillte i knew one day there was a meaning for me to be, to help our children and to help the world to be a better place to more a place were people can live from their heart....
This dream came more and more again alive,the moment i becomed a mom.For me my son he is my biggest teacher...i love him all the way...When i look into his eyes...i know he feels me all the way...

So this for now so far...:)
More about this you'll read later,becaus duty calls

What's happening with me?

2007-02-17T06:43:00.000-08:00

Na een hele periode waar ik alleen maar in een staat van diepe ontroering kon ZIJN, komen mijn tranen nu eindelijk vrij...
Deze diepe pijn,zo plots uit het niets....Wat gebeurt er momenteel met mij?

Lang geleden dat iemand zo mijn ziel weet te ontroeren...Dit omdat je zo puur bent,zo eerlijk durft te kijken naar jezelf...raakt het mij in mijn diepste wezen...

Zelf zat ik ook al tijdje vast, wetende dat Peter een reflectie was van wat in mij was en hierbij wordt her-boren...
Volledig zijn, wat voeld dit vreemd nu ik er terug zou kunnen "bijhoren"!
Voel in geen sprankeltje behoefte hier nood aan te hebben...
Laat mij maar ZIJN wie ik ben...

Momenteel kan je je niet voorstellen wat er zoal gebeurt in mij....een vage herinnering van een vorig leven...
Beseffende dat ik gedurende geheel mijn leven hier niet op aarde kon zijn...mijn licht niet kon schijnen bij al wat of wie niet in waarheid durfde te zijn

Beseffende dat er momenteel geen andere uitweg meer lijkt te zijn terug te keren naar diepe waarheid,geworteld in mij....

Blijkbaar voeld het momenteel nog steeds meer vertrouwd,om mezelf kapot te maken,mijn eigen licht te doven omdat het zo hoord...
Het licht instappen ...durven te ZIJN wie ik ben....krachten te durven ontplooien, waarvan alleen GOD en ik weten dat het er ooit moest van komen.

De liefde voeld zo onwenning.....na alle innerlijke strijd van pijn.
Kansen worden me geboden, waarvan ik nooit had durven dromen...

Vraag jullie angstig te bidden met mij....Zodat ik terug zal kunnen zijn....
het kind van licht, vol dromen en medeogen, liefde is wie ik ben,niets is erger dan je eigen licht te doven....Vader ik bid tot jou....neem jij het van hier even over

Dit schrijven mag misschien voor jullie raar overkomen, het kan me eveneens niet meer schelen....ik kwam tot zover altijd alles al te boven

Serenity

2007-02-15T05:36:00.001-08:00

GOD grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

By Reinhold Nieburh

Dreambrother

2007-02-12T06:11:00.000-08:00

I feel afraid and i call your name>

I love your voice and your dance insane>

I hear your words and I know your pain With my head in your hands and her kiss on the lips of another

Your eyes to the ground and the world spinning round forever

Asleep in the sand with the ocean washing over

Don't be like the one who made me so old Don't be like the one who left behind his name

Cause there waiting for you like i waited for mine

And nobody ever came>Nobody ever came>Asleep in the sand with the ocean washing over >Dream brother,dream brother,dream>In the sand with the ocean washing over>

Locked inside of me

2007-02-12T04:50:00.000-08:00

Locked inside of me...why still can't be me! Locked inside believe...believe one day it will be you and me...

People say i should let go...
But how can i let go the one thing,this one soul ever, recognised me without words needed
How can i let go the one true friend was there for me when needed

How can they know what God wanted for us to be...

I know one beautiful day
i will be sitting there in these fields of gold...that inner smile knowing it was meant to be...totally free, forever you and me , side by side in eternity

Tell me how can i let go this dream?

Is it a dream?

I know one thing; you were for real...

How can i let go, without understanding what happend that night?
What was driving you over the edge;
Why didn't you left a note?

You just took your live without even saying goodbye

Only for me THE End of this story
A story were i thought i had found my one true friend...who promised me never have to say goodbye...always would be by my side...

Why was it you...and not ME
How can i ever forget

Your always on my mind, all of the time...

Godess Isis

2007-02-12T02:56:00.000-08:00

GODDESS ISIS :

The Keeper of the Pyramid Energies on this planet. The activator of the pure love of the Goddess in all Heart Flames. The Goddess of Truth and Wisdom. She is one of the Temple Keepers of the Sisterhood of the Rays.Dispensations: Will help any sincere Spiritual Seekers Align themselves with the Pyramid Energies and the Ascension Flames there within. A Healer and Protector of all Women and Children.

When i askes myself the question, who am I? What lives deep in me? Please Father, let me see?
Later on I've received these messages...of the inner light that shines in me....i felt this really strongle...but at this time it was not necessary to reveal.I had just to re-member...it's like a litle later something happens and suddenly...doing this specifique thing...you re-member what lies beneeth
It feels strange to write this down,because my whole life I good not really be me,always felt an outsider in any kind of thing.Like i didn't really fitted in, no lawyers or docters as parents,only a mom and 2 halfsisters who could drink my blood. Didn't wanna me to studying, that wouldn't be right.Why do i had to be different? Why do i pretent to be more, they asked thimselfs? It was there thinking...it was them my sister who hitted me,loked me up in the dark...and till i thought i would die...She had such power over me!Teachers who let me feel that i will never be this or that,if i didn't have a family willing to support./span>
I have battled many fields...THe only thing i could think was, not to give in/up...ALthough sometimes it was as if my heart got pulled out,this inner cry from the soul !
Then that's mostly when the light comes up and show...Just cry it out,whatever it is...you'll be heard.The more often you do,the more often you'll be able to recognize
All the way i had this inner strength... i knew i would go to the end, "FATHER" beside me all the way...

The end is near,no more hiddings,everything must reveale...few steps on my own again,starting to desire for someone is there for me in no harmer
This whole experience here on the planet called earth....were I have so much learned and got hurt, brought me so much inner wisdom, SO I WILL ALWAYS RE-MEMBER IT WAS WORTH

Prayer for Dispensation

I call forth to Beloved Isis for an Anchoring and Activation of the Golden Ankh into my Heart Chakra to illuminate the Immortal Wisdom of the Goddess.
SO IT IS DONE. x 3 times

Always there's a place for you in my heart, not a single day goes by....that i don't get remind...how much love you gave me and still lives in me

2007-02-11T17:31:00.000-08:00

The gentleness of your touch,
The sweet passion of your kiss,
Just a couple of many pleasures,
I treasure and so longingly miss.

So much we've journeyed through,
Never doubting my love for you,
So many realities and dreams,
You've made them all come true.

We have shared so many joys,
And also felt so many sorrows,
My faith in love gives me the hope,
To believe there is a tomorrow.

Gifted with your loving harmony,
Forever you'll be within my heart,
No matter what each day brings,
In my heart we'll never be apart.

To Love and only Love
Always yours
Mya

Whish upon Star; to follow were you are

2007-02-10T23:45:00.000-08:00

Here a would like to write a litle more about my own experience,

What i experienced as messages from the light.First i thought this came from Peter's(and for me so it was/is) counsiousness. Many puzzles must lead to let me see,how live is actually not real.

Spirit Guide you
Let the spirit guide you beyond the stars.
Let them guide you into the universe.
They are waiting patiently for you.
They are waiting for a sign.
The password that will connect you.
They will guide you.
Teach you in every way possible.
Take the step into the pool of light.
Take a chance on life.

THAT HOVERS THE HEAD OF EVERY PERSON ON EARTH. THE BRIGHTNESS OF THIS THE SOUL STAR VERY MUCH DEPENDS ON THE EVOLUTION OF SOUL EXTENSION ON EARTH .THE SOUL STAR IS NOT THE SOUL , BUT RATHER AN INSTRUMENT THROUGH WHICH THE SOUL DOES ITS WORK THIS SOUL STAR BECOMES ABOUT SIX INCHES ABOVE THE HEAD IS A ETHERIC STAR OF LIGHTACTIVATED UPON USING THE SOUL MANTRA.THERE IS ALSO AN EARTH STAR ~ ABOUT SIX INCHES BELOW YOUR FEET . THIS IS YOUR CONNECTION WITH THE EARTH MOTHER AND THROUGH FOCUSHELPS GROUND YOU

Toen ik bovenstaande las, was dit nogmaals een bevestiging voor mijn inzichten, of over hetgeen ik waar nam.
Het was een opluchting enigzins dat ik niet gek was.Dat ik hetgene ik voelde geen verzinsel was om beter met Peter's heengaan te kunnen omgaan.
Jullie zullen naarmate ik verder schrijf merken, dat hetgene ik mocht ervaren infeite een opeenvolging van openbaringen waren!

Trust

2007-02-10T22:50:00.000-08:00

Trust

Trusting someone with your hart.
With your Love.
This is the most powerful experience
you can imagine.

Even if they don't return your trust,
your openness.
You know you are giving everything
you can.
With an open hart, an open mind
If we are not able to trust that everything is
going to be the way it should be.
We are never able to become what
we need to be.
Pure Love!
Pure Trust in ourself!